Intro

A hole. In the center of my chest. A big knot. I can feel it!
I can feel the emptiness. And I can relax into it. Fall behind it.
5 hours of Meditation to come. No moving. Nothing.
My 3rd Heart Opening begins…

Timeline of the 3rd Heart Opening

The Day of the Opening (27.01.26)

Tuesday, January 27th, 3pm. Ten minutes after my third 1-hour psychedelic breath journey.
The black hole reveals itself.
A dense point beneath the middle of my chest, a knot.
A point I didn't know was still my heart.

In hindsight, I can easily say that during the first two openings, only the left side of my heart revealed itself.
An area with several sub-sections that I could feel strongly whenever I directed my attention there. A place of great joy, and intense burnings when there was pain that wanted to be released. Sometimes closed, sometimes open. But always on the left side of my chest.

Now I know: There is more.
Right in the middle of the chest – and even a tiny bit to the right? That's also the heart.
I've never felt it.
Only as what I now call my "panic center".

I knew the area from moments of great pain, immense sadness, and especially "shocking" rejection/abandonment moments. It was a part that contracted, and felt like a black hole. Like a part that should receive air but didn't. Not a feel-good place! Quite the opposite. A contracted know and cold empty hole at the same time.

In the 5 hours meditation (basically no movement, nothing), I did nothing else than breathing into that spot. Relaxing into the tension again and again. Until it slowly began to soften.
After 3-4 hours, the tension moved down to the Solar Plexus. And everytime I focused on the centre of my chest, there... suddenly was something! Yes, there was something. It felt full – not completely yet, but way more than before. I could feel my heart in there. And it suddenly was a place that warm as well.

Unfortunately, I didn't "make" it through completely. My determination wasn't strong enough. And allthough I realized, I had miles to go and had committed myself to "lay here stubborn as Siddartha until it has fully opened", I ended the meditation at around 8pm. Half-way through. Half-way open.

The Day After (Hangover)

I woke up feeling weird.
Stuck in between worlds.

Something is different!
I experienced the usual hectic in the morning. But not really.
I felt a normal overwhelm. But not really.
My mind was active as often. But somehow different.
I just couldn't grasp it at all. Just weird.

Three short breathings and two cryings later (a small one, and a big one), I felt more released and calm.
Yet only a bit later I was in total hectic again.
States shifted rapidly. Total presence to intense restlessness.
My system was processing. My heart not open enough to feel everything. But open enough to release some old stored patterns.

Two Days After

Presence.
The word of the day. The clarity of the day.
I knew it was the key. I wrote a lot about it in my "Diary of the Heart" (photos to be uploaded later).

My body felt lighter, after the immense physical pain & releases during the 5h meditation.
I had ideas en masse in the morning and could have written dozens of articles on a multitude of topics.
It didn't feel so weird anymore.

The clearest difference was the feeling after waking up in the morning. Now the difference became more clear to me.
My mind was active as if in overwhelm, but my body was not.
It's like it hadn't gotten the memo yet, that the reason it's producing the stories for had been released energetically. At least partially.

"Today was a good day" I wrote in the final entry of the Heart Diary, after I had started it with a prayer to God that he would give me the strenght to stay with my heart when it most wants to close.

Main insight: My “panic center” isn’t there anymore (or at least not as active)

Opening Part 2 (after-wave), 30.01.26

Waking up before midnight.
The panic center is back!
At night, it's still there.

So, another chance to release.
Three hours meditation until 2 am.

The Journey into the Heart – A Chronology of Events

A 3rd heart opening obviously doesn't come without a 2nd and 1st.
So here is a bit more context for the events documented above.

Big Milestones (Heart Opening Experiences + ???)

• #1 = early February 2024 (not much documented)
  → first cracks in the armor of the heart (from closed to slits in the armor)

• #2 = middle of February 2025 (more here)
  → from "cracks but still covered" to pieces falling off in left area

• #3 = late January 2026 (see above)
  → right side of the heart (partially) opening as well

All those phases were usually followed by days or weeks of a lot of crying.
Long stored energy (pain in this case) now had a way to release. And took advantage of that new channel.

Unfortunately, the first two Heart Openings also came with a prolongued period of numbing after the initial "crying weeks". My hope & prayer is that I will be strong enough this time, to stay with the heart when all the old stuff comes up.

Small

• [Feb 2025] Heart Focus Doc → The first time center stage

  • "Sorting through past articles & recordings, you won’t find me speaking about the heart a lot. A little bit, here & then, but never in depth, and certainly not very often. This will change from now on!"

  • "There is a deep knowing that this focus on people with an open heart / the intention to share closings will play a huge role moving forward."

• [Jul 2025] Midnight Memo → When the Calling appeared (Prio 10 recording)

  • “If there was only one thing I could show the world, it’s how to stay open in your heart when it most tends to close”

• [Dec 2025] Anticipation of “3rd Heart Opening coming soon”
  → vllt. schon November → find exact date through journal notes

• [20 Dec 25] “Die Reise ins Herz” – Einladung (German)
  → insert photos

• [01 Jan 26] Creation of “Diary of the Heart”
  → Link once uploaded

• [23 Jan 26] Real Start of Heart Diary

• [27 Jan 26 - ongoing] 3rd Heart Opening

Appendix

Die Reise ins Herz