Every person you meet is either a friend, a challenge, or a gift.
– Unknown

How I will show up in your life depends on what you choose it to be.

Watching my own life, especially when I'm naturally attracted into other peoples' paths, it has crystallized into three distinct expressions:

🚒 The Firefighter — when things collapse and you're at the brink of despair. When most people turn away from the rawness of your pain, I’ll be there. No matter how ugly the wound.

⚰️🐣 The Death Doula — when you’re ready to make the LEAP, to shed an old self and go all-in with life, I bring the hardest challenge: tearing away what no longer belongs, standing with you through death and rebirth.

🌱 The Seed Planter — in all the in-between times, I appear like a flicker. Light flashing on for a moment, then gone, re-appearing again and again — small seeds of meaningful interaction scattered along your path.

The Surrender Experiment – Live

Welcome to the digital home of “my” experiment of Total Surrender. Letting the life of Johannes Fischerkeller (aka my civil name) become a true piece of art, a masterpiece, and being a case study for others as a “person of glass” by conducting my experiments with truth in the open with total transparency.

I want to stop living life!
And let myself be lived by it.

Embracing Imperfection

Why try to write a personal homepage at all, if it’s impossible to present an accurate view anyways? Humans are such complex, multi-layered beings who are – to make it even worse – constantly changing. And words, especially written words, seem to be a poor vehicle to convey such depth. So why even try?

Because it’s worth it: Imperfection is an essential part of life – a beautiful part of reality, not a problem to get rid of – and there is no point running away from it. So let’s try. 🙌

At first, I thought you were an arrogant jerk who pretended to have all the answers and to know how to make the world perfect.
– Ben L.

Warnings

Before sharing any concrete thing about me or my work, let me say this though:

• If you find me to be arrogant/pretentious on first impression (“this guy thinks he got all the answers”) that’s normal. I haven’t found a way (yet!) to speak my truth in a way that doesn’t come across like that for at least some people.

• What’s also normal is this: Some content, usually those parts that will feel most valuable later on, will at the beginning – as long as not backed by direct experience in your own life – feel repetititive! (little joke, I know how to spell repetive 😛.)

Keep both of these in mind and – if it turns out to be true – come back here to click on the links above that go deeper.

If anything written here seems to be touched with pride, just dismiss it!

Two more bigger warnings:

• First, the person who is closest to me says that I’m leaving a trail of devastation behind me when getting in contact with people. This might be more relevant for in-person interactions, not for a visit to the website, but maybe a miniature version applies here as well.

• Second, you can’t unsee things. Interacting with the writings, audios & videos of this message might activate a deep inner knowing, a knowing that recognizes truth when it hears it, yet makes it impossible to keep intact the web of illusions that functions as a foundation to live (“plod along with”) life in our current society. If you want to avoid that painful experience of potential disillusionment, then better don’t start reading at all!

Danger: You can’t unsee a truth you’ve encountered; only suppress it (at great costs).

Final notes (How to engage with this site)

A few final things before we get started:

• Information ↔ insight: Most content on this site is less concerned with information and more with creating insight & tapping your latent inspiration. Therefore:

• Read with your heart & soul, not (only) the mind: Don’t get attached to words, they’re only portals, opening doors to deeper truths & insights. Especially don’t try to compare terminology with other sources, as …

• There is no external source for anything I write on this site. The only true source is my own deep inner wisdom. External sources – even when quoted a lot – are only ever used if they resonate with my own inner truth at the moment of writing.

• You already know! There is a part of you, that recognizes truth when it hears it. Immediately. Undoubtedly (at least before the mind jumps in). Much of my writing is addressed to this knower. Regarding deeper spiritual truths & perspectives, there is nothing some part of you don’t already know.

• Questions, objections & resistances will almost certainly come up while reading. Even though heavily inflated by the mind, they all have a true core & this core is likely addressed at some other point. Just stay patient and …

• Go with the Flow: No one way actually fits all. This site is set up so there are infinite ways to dance through this; play with it, enjoy the journey. And even if you end up clicking on the first external link and never come back! This is not about me. Maybe that was exactly the role this site was supposed to play in your life. 🙌 → Trust yourself!

I hope this website reaches the right people: those who are ready for a radical transformation, a Leap in Consciousness, for truly committing to (their) Life and taking 100% responsibility.
I also hope it will reach many others who will find the content here worthy of consideration, although they may not be ready to fully live or practice it yet. May this website plant (or water) a seed that will sprout later in time… 🙌

What will follow on this website (= Overview)

This page is not a straight line — it’s a journey with many doors.
You can walk it all the way through, or jump directly to the place that calls you most:

• The Experiment of Total Surrender
  → What it means to stop “living life” and let Life itself live through you.

• The Ultimate Vision (within an imperfect world)
  → The twin pillars: True Togetherness (the power of the collective heart) and LEAP (100% responsibility as the only real foundation).

• The Many Doors
  → Different entry points into my world and work — some bright, some subtle, all alive. Choose the one that resonates.

All models are wrong. Some are helpful.

The Experiment of Total Surrender

Here is a controversial statement: I want to stop living life!
Why? Because I want to let myself be lived by it.
“It” is Life itself, the Universe, God, the Tao, Spirit – whatever name resonates most with you.

I want to stop living life! And let myself be lived by it.

What does that mean?

It means listening to the call of the Universe and answer it. Moment to moment to moment.
It means being really sensitive to what life asks of me and be courageous enough to follow through.
It means letting go of personal likes & dislikes that only stem from the illusion of separation and the belief that I can only be fine if things go my way.
It means holding the vision of (unattainable) perfection along with the reality of what is (including that there are still personal likes & dislikes running my life).
It means letting myself become an instrument of service, naturally acting for the welfare of all (which includes “myself”, as one unique expression of the “all”).
It means striving to be in alignment with life as it is, not with my IDEA of how life should be.
It means letting go of plans & concepts once they become limiting, using them only as stepping stones for growth.
It means being truly open and trusting in its purest sense, deeply believing that everything is exactly as it should be and that there is a higher “intelligence” guiding me and all other things.
It means trusting myself as spirit, as one unique expression of the Universe (“When you’re trusting yourself, you’re trusting in the very wisdom that created you”).
It means letting Life come alive in me, letting the Universe wake up to itself in me, returning to Tao, returning to the source & becoming (realizing that I am) one with everything.

How does that express?

By definition, I can’t give a specific expression (or even multiple ones) of how this Experiment of Total Surrender comes to form. Life in the Surrender Experiment is an emergent property. It’s unpredictable, expresses itself differently from moment to moment. I can’t know ahead of time what will happen. Especially as it’s also dependent on the evolution of the whole world & all the people around me.

"Purpose" is no separate entity. It exists only in the context of the world around you.

The thing I can do though is to look back at how it has expressed in past moments and give a careful best guess how it will express moving forward. Knowing those guesses come from a double-limited perspective: First, it’s only my view, my unique angle on truth. Second, it’s my view now, at only one point in time.
With that limitation in mind, let’s try:

My best guess

To no one's surprise, the Surrender-Experiment is a journey of greater & greater alignment with the Universe. Alignment with something that is constantly expanding & changing is not a state though, not an outcome, but a direction, a process.

Alignment = Moving in the same direction as the Universe with the same speed.

What might be more unique to my journey, is that I feel called to make that process openly accessible for everyone (who is interested!), documenting as much as possible, sharing not just the results but also most of the private journals that lead up to all projects, writings & “tangible expressions”. Imagine we’re all sitting in a glass house full of curtains. Part of my call (this certainly isn’t right for everyone!) is to pull back all the curtains.
Gandhi’s autobiography is called “The Story of my Experiments with Truth”, as he recounted & shared them after the fact. My experiments are basically shared while they’re happening.

Some artists create their masterpieces while people are watching: painting or sculpting their material under the eyes of the public. That’s what I do. Only that the canvas is my life, that the dance floor is earth; artfully playing around with the paradox that humans are imperfect by our nature and yet can be fully aligned with the Universe with all our imperfections. Dancing with the paradox of “being there” while “never figuring it out”.

A life as a transparent Masterpiece (in the making) in greatest service to Life.

How does this serve the world?

For decades, we have studied what can go wrong with people’s psyche, while producing more & more that malfunction. Today we’re starving for psychologically truly healthy people. We need the role-model of deeply flourishing people more than ever, yet we’re fighting against what those people have to say, paradoxically also more than ever.

Part of my calling is to be a showcase for how to live a truly meaningful life in a time of collective meaning-crisis; how to flourish in a time & context of (very subtle) destruction; how to experience abiding joy in a time of pandemic despair.

You don’t have to live a life like me to benefit from my path.
As human beings we have the extraordinary ability to learn from one another’s experiences. In case you’re interested in living life truly aligned with the Universe, this site will not be completely useless to you. In fact, if I’m speaking my full truth, I believe it will be of immense value. But only for those who are willing to let go & transcend their old sense of self.

The Ultimate Vision (within an imperfect world)

When I look at what really matters, two currents run through everything I do:
– the heart-current of True Togetherness — the belief that we can remember ourselves as one organism, and live as if that’s true.
– the spine-current of LEAP — the radical act of taking 100% responsibility for life itself.

Together, they shape the vision: a world where we stop asking “who’s in charge of life?” and start living as if life itself is in charge.

True Togetherness — the heart

True Togetherness is more than an idea — it’s the living recognition that we are already one organism. Not as a metaphor, but as a reality we can choose to act from. When I say “we,” I don’t mean a nice community project. I mean the deep fact that your breath and mine, your courage and mine, weave the same fabric.

And yet, that fabric is fragile. Most of the time, we live as if we were separate, protecting our small lives against one another. True Togetherness is the reversal: it is choosing to live as if what happens to you also happens to me, as if my wholeness depends on yours. The experiment is not to reach perfection, it’s to truly live the intention — returning, again and again, to the heart that includes us all.

If you feel resonance, I invite you into this field directly. The main door is True Togetherness – Where Real Synergy Begins. You can either only express your interest or really engage with the deep synchronization. You choose. Trust your inner voice!

LEAP — the spine

LEAP is the other current that runs through everything: the demand to take 100% responsibility. Not 99, not “almost.” As long as there is even 1% left outside, we keep some small escape route alive — a way to blame, to wait, to hide. LEAP is the act of closing that exit. It is the spine of a life aligned with truth.

Taking full responsibility does not mean controlling everything, or carrying the whole world on your shoulders. It means something more radical: letting go of the illusion that someone else will live your life for you. It means stepping into the paradox where you are both utterly responsible, and at the same time utterly surrendered to Life itself.

LEAP is also becoming a book — a way of sharing this field more deeply, for those who want to walk with it. If you feel resonance, there will soon be a form to step into direct practice. And if you want to fuel this work already, you can support the writing through [Crowdfunding]. Each of these is a doorway, but the essence is one thing: to leap into total commitment, with no way back.

More on the Vision

If there’s one more thread I’d add, it’s this: divinity lives in all of us. Every being carries a golden seed of goodness, even when buried under layers of fear, distraction, or numbness. My vision is not to “fix” people or the world, but to water that seed — in you, in me, in us together.

This belief changes everything. It shifts us from fighting against shadows to speaking to the light that’s already there. It changes how we lead, how we build, how we serve. And it is the ground on which both True Togetherness and LEAP grow.

The Many Doors

This homepage is not a straight corridor with one entry. It’s more like a constellation. Different doors, each opening into a different angle of my life and work. Some doors are small and quiet. Others are big, bright, almost demanding attention. All of them are alive.

You don’t need to walk through them all. One door is enough, if it’s the right one for you. Or you can wander, explore, let curiosity lead you. This part of the site is a hub — a living map where you choose how deep to go.

So take your time. Trust your resonance. Click where you feel the pull.

The Bright Doors

If you want to get to know me fast, these are the most obvious doors — where the pulse is clearest and the work most visible.

🌱 My Work / Creation

The things I build, write, and share in service to Life.

• Synergetic Connections → the article that maps the kind of people I want to meet and co-create with.

• Intuition Academy → the most advanced project so far, even if not currently active, now a portal.

• Articles & Blog Pieces → places where clarity condensed into words, like the “Modern-Day Gandhi” main article. → via this "website" or Substack

• Poetry → We long to belong + Sometimes I wonder + more

🎨 My Experiments & Identities I play with

Life itself is my art form. The experiments are how I let it sculpt me.

• Owning My Role → [follows soon]

• “Modern-Day Gandhi Experiment" → my "beyond unconventional" relationship with money and giving & receiving.

• "World-Best Communicator" Identity → my approach to listening & taking full responsibility for the communication gaps

• m99 → Mastery-Identity

• The Surrender Experiment (Live) → my central journey of letting Life live me.

✨ My Futures / Visions

I often see futures so vivid that it hurts not to walk toward them. Seeing life through my closed eyes is another way to connect and get to know me.

• True Togetherness → what we all deeply long for, not only in theory, but in painful action

• LEAP → 100% responsibility.

• more: → article "Im Jahre 2200"

The Threshold Doors

These doors ask for a pause. They’re less shiny than the Bright ones, but if you step through, they reveal deeper layers of who I am.

🪞 My Self-Reflections

Inner dialogues, raw thoughts, fragments where I wrestle with truth. Or other unpolished updates, that show the living process behind everything else.

• Diary → [follows soon]

• Close Friends Updates → [follows soon]

• private journals

🌑 My Dark Side

Not just strengths, but shadows — the places I stumble, struggle, and confront myself.

• Weaknesses and blindspots.

• My biggest struggles (pain, vulnerability, capacity for love vs. seeing clearly).

🧭 My Virtues

The qualities I strive to embody — not as ideals on a poster, but as living practices.

• Virtue Compass

👥 My Friends’ View of Me

How others close to me perceive me — both the “good” and the “bad.” Mirrors that don’t always flatter, but always teach.

• collection of written & spoken perspectives

The Quiet Doors

Small, subtle, often overlooked — but sometimes the quietest doors lead to the deepest intimacy.

📜 My Past

Where I come from, the path that shaped me.

• recordings where I talk about where I come from

📚 My Bookshelf

And the Podcast & Documentary shelf. The books & Co. I love and resonate with most — companions that keep me grounded and inspired.

• Books + Podcasts + Documentaries + more

🕯️ My Influences

The people who have been most influential in how I look at existence.

• Inspiring People Overview Article

📝 My Letters

Written to others, like my letter to Charles Eisenstein — moments where my own clarity sharpened in response to another voice.

Overwhelmed? Or looking for even more?
→ Talk to ChatJFK

If, after wandering, you still don’t know where to start — begin with ChatJFK. It’s the compass-door.
It won’t tell you which path to take, but it will walk with you as you find it.

It has literally become my clarity partner. You can bring in any question, any door, any piece of writing, and it will help you navigate in my living voice.

Think of it as walking with me — not polished answers, but resonance, reflection, and truth.

Want to support?

The best way to support anything & anyone is always this:

And... here are 3 ways to concretely support my unique expression of that "larger me":

1️⃣ Support with your Attention

Everything will grow if you give it time & attention.

Your attention is probably the most valuable "asset" that you have (way more than any materialistic thing or concrete skill).

Mailing list (new): If you want to stay in the loop in your rhythm, leave a light footprint here:
👉 Johannes’ Personal Journey — QQ1
(choose what you want to receive + how often + via which channel)

2️⃣ Support financially

This journey is fueled by resonance and by resources. If you feel called, you can support me here:
👉 Eat, Serve & Make Mistakes — GoFundMe

3️⃣ Support with your time

Every creation here is a thread in a much larger weave — and a weave takes many hands.

If you feel the pull to pour some of your life-force in — three hours, twenty, or whatever feels true — whether as a steady hand, a curious mind, or a co-creator of vision:

👉 Teaming Up / Volunteering — QQ1
your first footprint in the field of active contribution

Appendix (internal)

Improving this article (things to add/change in next iteration)

• Meaning of "359"

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